a new motto...

"Instead of wishing you could be; do and you will become."
I used to admire those people who were confident enough to do something unique. I still do. But lately, I've realized the only thing that sets me apart from these stylish, young, go-getters is that I hold myself back. Questioning myself, "can I pull that off?" "what will so-and-so think?" The confidence I once had in myself, and trust in those around me, was gone. I needed to jump start my mojo- do something crazy to remind myself I am unique in some way; that I am the one in control of my life. So- I cut my hair off.
Now, I'll be the first to admit- it's just hair. It will grow back and it's not a big deal. And it's not like I shaved my head- the cut I have is stylish and flexible with my mood. A lot of women in my family have short hair including my mom and my always stylish cousin, Zoe. So it's not like I am in untrodden territory now. But, you'd be surprised the amount opposition I faced. Friends telling me not to go through with it; that it was a bad idea and I would regret it. But, as usual, when I set my sights on something, I do it regardless of what people say- or at least I try to. So I did it and, I'll admit, at first I regretted it. I didn't hate it- but I most definitely did not love it. But now that I am letting myself have more fun with it (faux-hawk, spiking, etc) I am enjoying it so much more.
The best part, I think, is seeing other people's reactions. People who thought I would never do something like this; those people who consider stylish/short hair only for the artsy and trendy people (as I once thought). Seeing that glint in their eye as they reevaluate me and my coolness factor has proved quite entertaining. I've realized hair doesn't mean a thing...I am the same me. It's just fun to see people wondering to themselves "when did Camille get cool?" Newsflash- always been awesome sauce- but if crazy, nontraditional hair is what it takes to share that, so be it.